And Then There Was Today

I made a very clear discovery last Saturday night while I was at home, stoned, and watching Marley and Me...by myself.  I thought maybe I was not meant to have a boyfriend right now.  I don't need a man in my life at this very moment.  I need to focus on myself for awhile and not waste my time on all these other guys I try to make like me.  Great plan and it kinda worked for a week until today.  I woke up with all these intentions to make this day great.  See a play or visit a museum or walk around or write or anything other than sitting on the couch all day and watching tv.  I couldn't get myself out of the house.  All I kept thinking about, wishing for, was a man friend to take me out on an adventure in LA.  To no avail I went on the Craigslist.  F*ing Craigslist and read the "casual encounters."  Really?  All these guys out there willing and ready to take out a girl for dinner and a movie.  "Anyone down to see Up(the animated film)...A cool girl to cuddle with and maybe make out with."  Come on for a free meal and a movie I'm sure he is expecting alittle more action than that ladies.  Don't believe the hype. It just goes to show you how many lonely west coasters there are just needing alittle lovin on a sat night.  Nothing really hit my fancy so I moved on to the dreaded FB.  I went into a facebook hole just updating my status ever 5 minutes hoping someone to respond with lets hang out.  I watched the bball game alone, on the couch, without even a beer.  The night wasn't a total loss though.  A friend came over and we played Apples to Apples(if you don't know you better ask somebody) and listened to music with my lesbian roommates(who are a couple)...until they retired with candles and I crawled into bed to write this lasted entry.  Maybe Sunday will cheer me up with the Farmer's Market and an iced coffee.  Ahhhh, the simple pleasures.  

PS- I forgot to mention that I went to the bank super early to deposit some tips before debit card purchases went through and bloody Chase would charge me that nasty over draft fee.  As a waitress I am always poor, but living like I got all the money in the world.  So normal! (said with an eye roll)